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Thursday, October 21, 2010

Dreams?

Do you ever just want to have a pity party? I have so many things that I do have to be thankful for, including my amazing weight loss (now at 27 pounds), but I wish so badly that I could be a stay-at-home wife and mother. My daughter is growing up right before my eyes and I feel like someone else is raising her and the time that I have with her is what is "left over". I know that this isn't what God intends and it really upsets me. I wish that I could find a way to make it without having to work outside the home so much. And I do so hope that this is not a dream.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Family, Friends, and a Wedding

This past weekend was so great! My brother and his wife and girls came up Friday night, because we have a friend that we grew up with getting married Saturday morning. They got there at about 9pm and Savannah and Madison went wild. Savannah is almost 5 and Madison is 6, so they love to play together. Audrey is a 8 and a little calmer. But everyone was excited nonetheless and no one got to sleep until after 11:00.

The wedding was at 10am, so we had to rise and shine quite early and get everyone ready. We had no idea the wedding was outdoors and did not really dress accordingly. We still had a nice time though and it did warm up. The wedding was really nice and David looked so happy. His wife Beth seems to be really nice and it appears that they have a lot in common. I wish them all the happiness in the world!

At the reception we caught up with friends that we haven't seen in forever! I haven't seen Phil and Jeri since their wedding day 12 years ago! I hadn't seen Daniel and Zane in five years and it had been the same with David. With the exception of David and Beth, because according to David he had some "business" :) to attend to, we (me, Savannah, Ken, Rondi, Audrey, Madison, Daniel, Trish, Phil, Jeri, and Zane) went to Cheddar's for lunch. We had such a great time visiting.

Speaking of Cheddars for lunch. . . I knew that this would probably happen, so I had taken my meat in a container and I ate it on the way to the restaurant. Then at the restaurant, I ordered a tomato and an orange. I told the waiter that I was on a medically restricted diet and he was so accomadating. He didn't even charge me! I tipped him really well. I am just glad that I survived my first restuarant outing with such success! Especially at one of my favorite spots. IT CAN BE DONE! And I had it in me!

I went to my diet doctor yesterday. Officially three weeks and I am down 25 pounds! I am so excited. It is always nice to have a second person at a different scale confirm what your scales at home say. Look out people, you won't recognize me this time next year!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Success

Two weeks and a day in and I am down twenty pounds! And I am not hungry. I got hungry the first week a little bit, but now I get hungry at lunch and at dinner. When I am supposed to eat. In my whole life, I have never been so succesful at weight loss. I would love to fast forward to this time next year and see where I am at.

I have a fellow co-worker who is also doing this with me. She started her low calorie diet today. It will be exciting to do this with someone else. I hope that she has as much success as I have!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

My Journey Begins. . . with Pneumonia

It was explained to me that the first two days that I injected with hcg, I would eat anything and everything that I could. They are called loading days. It is encouraged to eat as much fat and sugar that you can possible hold. I know! What a way to start a diet! As I said, I don't know exactly the science behind this but I was sure willing to give it a try. So, with much anticipation, I awoke Sunday morning, with a sore throat I might add, and gave myself my first injection. We had plans to meet my mother-in-law for breakfast at Cracker Barrel, where I intended to eat to great capacity. By the time we left the restaurant, I new that I had a bad sinus infection, and by that afternoon I was flat on my back. And on a day that I was supposed to be focused on eating! I tried to force myself as much as I could. The next day, I felt even worse, still trying to eat, and I had to go to work. By then end of the day, I told my boss that I would not be there the following day, that I had to go to the doctor.

Contagious pneumonia, the diagnosis is. And with a warning not to go back to work for the rest of the week and for goodness sake, don't give it to your daughter. Meanwhile, I am supposed to be preparing these very specific meals that I don't even feel like eating because I felt that bad. I may have never been that sick in my life. Scott helped me out immensly. Not only was he Savannah's only caregiver for the week, he prepared food for me and just did everything that needed to be done. And keeping Savannah out of my room was a chore in itself. Especially at bedtime, because she always wants me at bedtime. But, she survived, Scott survived and so did I. It took about a week and I am feeling much better.

Meanwhile though, as my body was at work, in that week while diligently giving myself my shots, I lost 14 pounds. In a week! And the doctor tells me that it is not water, it is fat. Visceral fat, which is the unwanted unneeded fat, not structural fat that we need. I am taking his word for it, but I am thrilled. I hope that at the end of forty days I will be down fifty pounds. That is my hope. All I can do is everything that I have been told, and we will see where I wind up.

And so, I continue on my journey, feeling much better now. I am changing my life and hopefully those around me as I go.