For anyone who has ever struggled with their weight, this one is for you.
My husband and I made a commitment to ourselves and to each other that this is the year--nothing is to stand in our way--that we take back our lives and get healthy. I am really trying hard not to look at all the other times that I have made that commitment to myself. I know that this time will be different. I have a daughter who will be four on Tuesday and I really want to change my life before she realizes that I am fat!
I have said all along that I won't hold my child back because of my being overweight and so far that really hasn't been an issue. I have put on my plus size bathing suit and braved it on the beach and at the pool many times. I play on the playground with her. But, as she gets older, she wants to go to Dollywood and all these places that her friends are talking about and I realize, you know, my rear end will not fit into a tilt-a-whirl or a roller coaster. I know that she is still a tad too young for those things but there are rides that she can ride, and who is going to ride them with her? I will not hold my child back! This is a point of great emotion for me.
I have been overweight now for sixteen years. And this is the last year. This is my time. This is my husbands time. It is actually hard for me to imagine my life being different because it has been this way for so long. I want to feel better. I am tired of hurting. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am young at heart and I love to have fun, but inside I feel tired and old. This is the end. Or, the beginning.
It is January 28. I started counting Points on Weight Watchers on the January 1. I have lost 14 pounds. Not bad, not bad. My cousin is getting married at the end of April and my first goal is to have lost 50 pounds by then. I will be seeing a lot of people that I haven't seen in a long time and I just want to be well on my way. So, here is to me and April 24! Cheers!
